[ There are a thousand different questions Rey has expected to answer if she ever had to come clean about it, but explaining her feelings on the matter apparently didn't make the list.
She wants to say that she hated it. That it scared her. And while those things were true at first they quickly became not so true. It had been a source of confusion and comfort but also pain. She considers what she wants to say at first before she looks back down at her glass and shrugs. ]
I don't know. Not sure it matters.
[ Because ultimately doesn't the objective fact of how utterly unwise it was overrule the fact that it made her feel a little less alone in the universe? ]
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Date: 2020-08-21 04:40 am (UTC)She wants to say that she hated it. That it scared her. And while those things were true at first they quickly became not so true. It had been a source of confusion and comfort but also pain. She considers what she wants to say at first before she looks back down at her glass and shrugs. ]
I don't know. Not sure it matters.
[ Because ultimately doesn't the objective fact of how utterly unwise it was overrule the fact that it made her feel a little less alone in the universe? ]
It's strange to say these things aloud.